An unsettled feeling

I worked late last night. Went home to a comfort food dinner of spaghetti. I made Josh revise his Chinese writing. And also read the grammar books to him. Both the kids love the series of grammar books I bought recently but Emma only wanted to read the pink books and Josh only wanted to read the blue books. Then they started fighting and that's the cue to separate the kids and send everyone to bed. I love how Josh remembered my instructions, that the pEter and jane books, together with the grammar books,are to be always placed back in order at the bookstand, so that they will not go missing. I love it how he treasures his possessions, unlike Emma, who brought the grammar book back to her bed despite my instructions (her bed is so crowded now...one blanket, one teddy bear, 3 pillow plus one big pillow) and just fling the book aside. She wanted 'so many so many' things on her bed.

I am feeling rather confused and unsettled at the myriad of changes and developments that took place for the past few days. I have a nagging feeling that something is not really right but I can't place my finger on it. But for now, I guess I can't do anything about it, just wait and see...for the next few days. At least my home, my kids, my family shield me from the unseen pressures and forces of the outside world for a few hours each night. Maybe I should start praying each night. Sometimes perhaps we all just need a little guidance from the higher entities. I have never believed in it, to be honest, and much of the time, i forget what I pray about and what I ask for. But perhaps, apart from the time when I prayed so hard to pass my law exams, it's time for me to be humble and seek some guidance on my path ahead.

almost 6 months into 2011. it really has been a rather tumultous year (whether good or bad). For someone who is so resistant to changes, I think I went through alot this year. Can I just have my boring life back?